Today is the 30th June 2007 . The GST is gonna shoot up to 7% right after today . No good . Don't understand why is the government doing this, expecting us to pay this and that and everything, and, we don't really get what we deserve for the payings . Why ? Because all the money has gone to the building of new entertaining centres to attract tourists and so they earn money again . That's crazy . They're earning so much, of course the GST rise don't mean anything to them, and their money is enough for them to spend wealthily in the after life, not cursing them to die anyway . Sigh .

I just dyed my hair again, cool chestnut color, sort of a touch up for 070707 . Also bought new color lens, hippie chestnut color . =) . I guess i'll be so brown on that day . Haha .

Will have to go for CYA later at night . =.= . But i don't mind, because i get to see stars and mayors ? Lol . Maybe going drinking after that with some colleagues, haha, they just got their pay and wanted to have a treat ! Wuahahahaha ! ~ I hope they don't cancel it . =P

Yesterday went for the briefing for today's concert help out, the atmosphere is weird, it's so not fun without Nathan, but i don't blame him . I'm glad actually, because i think i learn something from him . Haha . To make a choice and be firm about it . I always have difficulties making choices because i have no idea which is the better one for me .

And i just broke the work record yesterday for breaking glasses . HAIZ ! ~ 1 tall glass of lime soda, 3 regular glass which one is orange juice, one is coke, and one is a glass of ice for the can of diet coke, altogether in one tray . I reach out my hand to place the coasters and the entire just oveturn and . . . all glasses smashed and the can of diet coke was dented . People looked at me, including workers of next door, Modesto . =.= !!!!!!!!

Then, rumours are spreading wide in the restaurant about Sky and me . Haiz . He has been trying to get my contact number for weeks . But, of course, he haven't got it yet. Then, last Saturday, i worked closing and have to help with the wiping of cutleries, he stopped his work and came over to help me . Everyone who saw was "wowing" so loud in the kitchen that i bet the customer outside could hear it . Since then, rumours are : " Sky and me are together " . But NO ! We are not together and we will never be possible . Language problem, we can't even communicate well, no time for each other, stay far away from each other, i don't feel ANY chemistry and he just don't look good enough . =/ . Yeap, all true . All true ! ! But i just can't stop the rumours . . . =( .

Wish me luck for everything .

Today is the 27th June 2007 . Accounting test for today and i think i'm doomed .

As usual, burnt my healthy olive midnight oil last night, i slept at 2 plus . I got almost everything clear, just some complex stuffs to clarify with the group today . Woke up at 7.45a.m. and redo tutorials for practises . Went to school, and i did clarify my doubts, and the thing is, i left my calculator on my table at home . =.= ! ! ! ! ! Never have i taken a test with such huge probability of failing . . . . Say it, : ' I'm doomed ! ' .

Just hope i score for other tests and do well in the next accounting test . Sigh .

That shall not affect my day for ITAB revision . I'll try not to think about it .

Nathan's quitting CYA, because he says they're cheating on us . Lied to us again and again . Saying that after this activity, we'll get to our know whether to qualify to become the member . Till now, they said it more then twice, and it's still not confirm . Either their organising committee has a serious lack of sense of responsibility or it's something that is going on that they don't let us know . Adeline Tan's also influenced by Nathan and considering about quitting . I don't blame them, if not for my bright beautiful future and a good job i can get with Changi Airport's testimonial, i would have simply quitted too . Nathan, Adeline Tan and me were having a conversation over CYA yesterday when we suspect that Vicki maybe delaying our membership on purpose . As what she said, we need to have the quality in us, so perhaps she's testing us . If that's the case, i think this test is just annoying . Whoever thinks of it just don't understand how we applicants feel towards the cca . Yes, the test result may reveal our true self, but in our point of view, it's just some disgusting trick to select their members . Nathan used to think so good of CYA, like all of us did . Now ? It's just some lying cca who don't keep to promises, not interesting as a cca . And even if he qualifies, he'll reject the offer . I thought that was a very good move since he is firm about his choice . However it is, i will try my best to stay in, for the sake of my future career .

Time for ITAB ! ! ~ Wish me luck !

Today is 26th June 2007 . GOOD AFTERNOON ! ! ~ Haha .

Haven't been posting and having been sleeping for days recently, busy with revision and stuffs . Oh how i wish there's no examintation . Imagine if one day your passing grade to the next level of education fully relies on the attendence . Woohoo ! ~ That's . . . superb . -Pinch myself- Guess this is totally impossible, so i shall stop dreaming .

Realise that i've been rather happy also . Well, don't ask me why, because only god knows . Exams are more of a test to me, and revision work suddenly feels so good, everything around me is almost turning into good things . And the thing is, i feel that i'm living in happy world when i'm alone and have got no task to complete . Erm . . . i'm not sick nor ill, i'm totally fine . Just wanna sing my way and jump on a bed, go for a chalet ( no BBQ ) and play till i drop . Wahahahaha . ^o^

Okay, back here before i lost myself to something else . My face is turning into some monster face . I've got zits and panda eyes ! Went barbeque-ing and didn't wash my face with cleanser because i was lazy to bring it along . And i'm burning healthy midnight olive oil to study for Mid Semester Test ( MST ) . Oh no ! Jie Jie's R.O.M. is next Saturday . =/ . Bad . But never mind, i'll wash my face morning and night a day every single day and do treatmentsssss ! ~ Haha . ^o^

Return ShengKai's shirt to him today, and personally . Well, my face was like . . . burning ? Hmph, because i wanted to pass to Julian and ask him to pass to ShengKai, but he ran away after exam ! Didn't wanna bring it for nothing, so i ask ShengKai whether is he in school . He was on his way to school, so met him at the train station . I barely remember how he looks like, then he came up to me . I was like . . . O.O . . . okay, your shirt, take it . Luckily i ran away fast enough, if not, people will think that i've got my face sun burned, not only mine, i think he will too .

Right, enough of crabs and lobsters, i must get myself started with accounting revisions before i'm too late . More updates tomorrow or the day after . Ciao ! ~ . . . ^o^ ! Happy happy happy ! ! ! ! ! !

Today is the 23rd June 2007 . I'm in a very low spirit, lower than what i use to have when i was emotional .

Supposed to attend Da Vinci's gathering at West Coast Park today, but in the end, i skipped it . Eddie called me when we were heading off from Choa Chu Kang . Waiting for the bus, i realised i've got a missed call from Black Angus, so i called back . Serene got her ankle injured, so Eddie is urgently searching for a replacement . I understand his difficulties to complete his task as the assistant manager of the restaurant, so i thought, perhaps i would help whenever i'm able to ( that's for him ) . Super busy today, at least three rounds or so of fullhouse - tired . Got free taxi home that i'll have to claim from the company and i got to know . . . why, Sammy and Raja ( the restaurant dishwashers ) is no longer working . And this is the thing, that makes me so angry and sad . They've been caught by the police for not having work permit . Well, they did have, Sammy's expired way long ago, and Raja's work permit is for construction site only . Police came all the way to our restaurant to handcuff them .

I don't understand . Don't understand at all, not a single bit ! They came all the way from India . INDIA ! ! For what ? To earn themselves a living ! Why can't the Singapore government just implement a work permit that only needs one time application and THAT'S IT ? ! And only bullshitter asses would think of catergorising work permit for different kinda jobs ! ! They are nice people, really nice people . I work with them for more than half a year I KNOW THEY ARE JUST LIKE ANY OTHER HUMAN WHO NEEDS A JOB FOR LIVING ! ! ! Fine, perhaps not renewing their work permit is partially their fault . But, do they have to handcuff them like criminals and put them behind bars AS IF THEY HAVE COMMITTED SERIOUS CRIME ? I strongly believe that the answer ought to be a NO, NO and NO ! And the worse thing that i heard, that tells why tears form in my eyes, was that, they'll have to be caned and be send back to India after three months of imprisonment . This is so unfair . . . the government may have succeeded in protecting the nation, but the process of this success has proven them to be too imhumane . Almost as inhumanely as what a war does to people . A war takes hundreds of lifes away, again and again, for the people who deserves it and the people who are totally innocent, all dragged towards the end of their life .

Where . Is . Justice ?

I wonder what are they doing now ? How are they doing ? What are they thinking ? How are they feeling ? If all these hadn't happen, they would have been so fine and happy . Mom told me it should be a person they befriend with who informed the police . If not, how is it possible that they're only arrested after their work permit expired for almost as long as 7 years if i'm not wrong ? Mom said it must be jealousy that the friend has for which Sammy and Raja are earning more money working at Black Angus . - Spit - This kinda people and you call them friends ? Oh please, a dog is so much better off than them . I totally hate betrayers, especially when it's friends who betray friends . Totally disgust me . I despise them, i look down upon them, they are the ones who deserves punishment more than anything else . I hate them, hate them, and hate them to the core . For god shall witness everything under the sky, including what happen to Sammy and Raja, and retribution shall exist and take place in return of justice to the innocent people .

I truly, with my deepest sincere, wish Sammy and Raja, for them to have a good job when they return to India, live happily without troubles and remember us always .

='( . I'm crying . . . because i really feel sad about their situation . And in absolutely no mood to do any single thing, including my exams revision .

Today is 22nd June 2007 . Last night, En came over to our house for a chat . =) . Was happy to see her i guess, it has been a while since the last time we met . She introduced me a new Taiwan drama, Why Why Love ( 换换爱 ）, nice show . Main actors are EXACTLY the ones in Devil beside you ( 恶魔在身边 ) . However, i only watched the front part because i cannot afford to be hooked . And was talking about En's working environment in the hospital when death once again came into the topic . Something really curious me a lot a lot, she said that, there's a pattern for death . In a ward, when one goes, it takes two along . Why ? I mean . . . just . . . go, why drag two along ? Isn't that being unfair ? I'm totally curious .

Then came a brand new today, Mom is bringing Granny to the hospital for some check ups . Bad i guess . Sigh . Zhen called from China to ask Mom about the silk blanket Jie Jie wants, surprised me though . Haha .

Er Jie found her dress for Jie Jie's ROM . I haven't yet, maybe i'll have to do some shopping after my MST . Argh ! Can't, i still have 3 projects to rush ! Help ! ~ . . . ='( . . . no nice dressing ? Min Jia's dresses has to be returned soon . Maybe i'll just ask some Da Vincian for their prom dress bah . Giggles, fret not now . . .

Miguel is moving over to my block, 8th storey, haha, yeah, Miguel from 4 Da Vincian . Not sure when . Granny's voice awaken me this morning and i heard her said that the renovation noises from our block come from the 8th storey, haha . Should be Miguel's because he told me his family will move over once renovation is done . ^o^ . Look forward to it .

Today is the 21st June 2007 . Told myself to study but i once again, slacked like exams' still months away . I have no idea what happened to me, but just feel restless . Perhaps . . . i was affected by Er Jie's horror dream . And now ? I'm so emotional that nothing can urge me to do something, except, perhaps, my Dad ?

Seriously, Mom hasn't a good body, hasn't a good health either, it applies to Dad too . I dare to dream of their death, i dare to talk about it, but i haven't any strength, i haven't any idea and not a bit of me dare face the day that come, the day good old God remove them from our world, because i know . . . i will be so destroyed to do any, anything . Enough .

Went offline early today, because i was so disturb with myself not studying .

I seriously hope . . . that day would be as far from us, as nobody would even think it that far .

Bless them and bless me, please .

='(

After studying for hours, i went online and took some personality tests . ^_^ Here are my results : -



You Have A Type B+ Personality
You're a pro at going with the flow . You love to kick back and take in everything life has to offer . A total joy to be around, people crave your stability . While you're totally laid back, you can have bouts of hyperactivity . Get into a project you love, and you won't stop until it's done . You're passionate - just selective about your passions .


Don't really know what i stand for, but just to know what type i belong to .
Your Love Type: INFJ
The Protector
In love, you strive to have the perfect relationship.For you, sex is nearly a spiritual experience, a bonding of souls . Overall, you have high expectations for any relationship you're in . However, you tend to hold back a part of yourself . Best matches : ENTP and ENFP



I thought this was rather true for me . Haha .
You Are Upper Middle Class
You're stuck in an interesting middle area between upper and middle class . You're wealthy enough for most people to call you rich (or at least comfortable), but you don't feel rich ! Climbing your way to the top is hard work . And you've often feel stretched for time and resources . If only you had a little more money ! You can't help but wish you had the lifestyle of the upper class . You may end up : A manager, high school teacher, or accountant . Other people who share your class : " White collar " professionals and business people .

I shall say this particular one fits me quite well .
You Have a Melancholic Temperament
Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything . You are a soft-hearted daydreamer . You long for your ideal life . You love silence and solitude . Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you .
Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace . You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life . Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times .
At your worst, you brood and sulk . Your negative thoughts can trap you . You are reserved and withdrawn . This makes it hard to connect to others . You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult .

^_^

Today is the 20th June 2007 . I'll be turning 17 years old after 6pm this evening . =) .

Went to John's class chalet on Monday . What shall i say here, hmm . . . . Memories recalled, because John's chalet room is directly downstairs of our chalet room . Not directly actually, next to the room directly downstairs of our room, yeah, that it is . I went, and kept on having " the scene " flashing in my mind . Bad . I helped with the cooking and went to arcade with them, no pool this time . John and his Lucify band friend went and hooked up a bear for fun and gave me as a birthday gift, well, thank you and i should tell you guys that the bear will be sitting in a corner of my room making 2D shapes on the floor outta dusts . And of course, yeah, i drank . Almost half of the people there are 18 or above, so alcohol is automatically present . However, i don't see vodka or whatsoever, i see beer . =.= . I dislike the taste of beer . It's bitter, yucks . They shared money and went out to buy a small bottle of Bacardi, this time not 40%, it's 37.5%, perhaps because it's smaller in quantity . Haha . I drank like half the bottle of Bacardi, not at once of course, bit by bit, mixing with Sarsi . Lol . Puke twice and thought i might have enough to make myself vomit, but not yet drunk . That's all for the chalet, not as fun as my class's chalet i thought .

Back home, i took shower and ate somethings . Off i went to bed like a zombie and sleep like no one's business . Haha, but i'm totally fine now, still a bit of a giddy with the Bacardi feeling in me, although it's like, past for so long .

I'll have to really study now, for real, i will blame myself and really punish myself, if i fail my test, because i have already enjoyed way too much . Bless me and wish me best of luck .

Happy birthday to myself ! ^_^

Today is the 17th June 2007 . It's Fathers' Day today, and i have none to present my gratitudes to my Dad for his everything towards the family . Am i such a loser ? I guess i am, a pathetic girl, who, has no sense of manners when it comes to being grateful . Sad eh ? Sigh .

It's exams the week after next, Economics, Business Statistics, Principle of Accounts and IT Business . I have not even touch anything with regards to those things until this afternoon as i start my first bit of revision of the first chapter of Economics . Failure i am, i know .

Adeline's granny had moved on to another world a few days ago, i really wonder how she concentrates on studies for exams . Makes me think of my uncle . Perhaps life is really short and past like nobody's business . And readers out there, if i ever die one day, don't even think of crying . Please be happy and smile when you all send me off . Not being strange or weird over here, but speaking the truth .

Three more days before i turn one year older, and people, please, no gifts / presents for me, because once there's this girl who gave me something which i have nowhere to place and the gift ended up in the trash . Yeap, i'm sure you people don't want your gifts to end up in trash too eh ? I have one wish in mind though, haha, a bit impossible and difficult to get it . That is, to go around Singapore in a super hot sports car and a cool handsome driver . Haha . Hard to get eh ?

Just . . . hope everything goes okay for now . . . and future .

Today is 13th June 2007 . I'm back from class chalet ! Haha . I have to and must admit, that it was indeed fun . =) . I've got new memories now, but this time, good memories .


Everything went well at first . The accomodation, the barberque and the people . It was so nice and fun . Haha . However, i think i ruined it all . I called for a drinking session and spoilt the fun . I ask Ying Zheng to help me buy some alcoholic drinks and we can have some fun . He bought Bacardi and Jim Bean . Caslin bought 6 bottles of Tiger beer . And who's drinking that you may ask ? Ying Zheng, Da Chai, Caslin, Julian, Sheng Kai ( Julian's friend ) and me . I wasn't drunk at all and i remembered what happened that day . Ying Zheng got drunk first, followed by Julian and Sheng Kai . Da Chai and me was a bit blur, not drunk yet, and Caslin only drank a little . Ying Zheng vomit, so does Da Chai and me . Haha, but Sheng Kai ran away . Those who didn't drink tried to catch those who were drunk . Haha . Think i shall stop here, yeap . Then came second day, we went for CIP, the children are like devils to me, irritating .

But then, everything was fine and fun . I wish for another chalet like this . =)

I want more, i ain't satisfied not getting totally drunk .

Today is the 5th June 2007 . Things ain't going too well . I screwed up my very own group's presentation and what affects me the most is that . . . this project is a CA . Yes, an assessment, an important assessment . I, in particular, screwed it all up . I did the least work and i contribute almost nothing . Yes, i may have very good articulation and presentation skills, but the thing is, i have absolutely no idea what i have to say . I went nervous and my mind went blank . All i ever could possibly do is, i read blindly from the powerpoint slides . This is sucky, i'm gonna fail marketing . Oh no .

Then came today, our class has trouble . Not trouble to/from outside, but within the class ourselves . Arthur feels a need to patch things up with the class and he threaten the class to co-operate with him or he shall complain to our Personal Tutor ( or what people always address as 'Form Teacher' . That doesn't scare us off, because we weren't afraid to be scolded . Besides, when our class has 23 students, 22 were against him . Which means to say, he alone, is against all of us . Haha, he's just so naive . And we already have the urge to throw him off the vice-chairman seat right from the beginning . Who cares if he really complains to the tutor ? The tutor might even think of being against him . Haha, a loser he is .

I may be over siding her a bit . Nevertheless, if everyone mistreat her because of her own good, tell her off because she don't deserve the respect, who will she turn to when she meets problem ? Who will she approach when she really needs help ? And, will she say out the truth of her’s when required heart? Everyone has flaws, similarly, no one is perfect, no one . Just like the violence you expressed when you are angry, she don't want her laziness and bad attitude to corrode her image either . Lastly, i am not sure whether has she treat herself as part of the family ever since mom tried to strangle her to death . If i were her, i will have simply move to sleep in the streets instead, and treat myself as an orphan .

Today is the 2nd June 2007 . I'm feeling so emotional, so so so emotional . Mr Jalleh and Miss Willa Chen had been officially pronounced as man and wife this morning . And i see Da Vinci once again, but not all though, people whom i thought will be present ain't present, and vice versa .

I'm supposed to rush my Marketing project now, but i no longer have the urge to do so, especially when i have started thinking of so many things .

30th May 2007 was JieRui's birthday, and i actually neglected it and did nothing . Am i too biased ? I went out for school in the morning, having only an hour of Business Statistic . Then went off to Vivo City with the class to catch a movie of Pirates . At night, i went out with Dennis for a concert . And that marks the 14th birthday of JieRui just like that .

When . . . watching Pirates, Cheryl's boyfriend called me . Because they fought, and he couldn't contact her . Why has he got my number ? Cheryl once used my phone to call him, that's why . He called me, and ask for Cheryl . So i passed the phone down to her . After the call, phone passed back down . He called again and again . It's my phone, and i have to answer first no matter what right ? Even though i knew it's him . And he actually demanded me to pass the phone to Cheryl using a irritating tone . Did i do anything wrong ? ! And i told myself, perhaps i'm being too sensitive . After the movie, Martin, Nathan, Cheryl and me went to Kim Gary to have lunch . Cheryl went off early, and i received an sms a short while after she left . It was her boyfriend . He asked if Cheryl is still with us, i replied despite the way he spoke to me just now and said Cheryl already went off .

Guess what he replied me ? " Ok . . . get lost . . . "

Is that what i get when i try to be friendly, when i forgive him for trashing his own reputation of speaking rudely to me, when i don't consider much and let Cheryl use what she needed in the cinema to talk over my phone despite the fact that i'm using prepaid card and it's so much more expensive to call . I never know why people can be so rude .

I've been thinking for days and my mood is swinging from north to south . . .